Monday, August 16, 2010

Brett BairdI struggle to find the positive in our current Sony camera. Compared to the old one, it just stinks. The old one had date stamping on the pictures. Sure, that can be annoying sometimes, but it ought to at least be an option. This picture was taken Friday night in Forestburg. It's Brett doing the ranch bronc riding. Obviously we have an issue with catching action shots. The video it takes isn't satisfactory, either. Not that I've ever really liked taking pictures. I'm sad. Someone told me the other day that I'm imposing on people by going to visit them. It wasn't someone that I visit that said that. I think the real point was that I'm not supposed to complain about the people who impose on me. I definitely wasn't complaining at the time, so I'm not sure where all that came from. I can't even remember the last time I complained about people using me. But now I don't wanna be imposing. Makes me just wanna stay home. I just wish I knew the point in pointing out my faults. I can't love everyone the same. It's a human problem that I have. And I lose trust very quickly. And I'm a little sensitive to being used. I don't think it will always be that way...maybe if I can have some decent relationships to help build my character back up again. Or however that works. But for right now, perfection is a bit out of reach. I'm sorry if I can't live up to your standard. And I'm sorry if you feel like I'm imposing on you when I assume that you really do wanna spend time with me. It's okay. I can pay. No more imposing. What do you want? You can have it all so long as you stop guilt trippin' me.


Whitney said...

that imposing business is tacky. and no. you are NOT imposing.


don't get me started.

and i consider myself decent ;)

tank said...

Apparently the point was that I should welcome people the way they welcome me. Had nothing to do with me being a user. But I'm trying to think of any one person who fails at making me feel welcome...usually I disappear before that happens. Guess I SHOULD try being more imposing. I might learn something from it.